intro to crumbs

on my way home from a wonderful vacation with a few of my favorite people, i thought about all the stuff we had talked about and done together and all the things that made us laugh and i wanted to write about it. i have a ton of journals that people have given me b.c i love to write- my favorite part is the note they put on the first page. my brother and my aunt have both done this and i love writing in them. in one i started drawing b.c i thought it looked dull w/ only writing in it. i usually write really late, so i write about stuff that happened during the day or... pretty much whatever's on my mind (i write a lot when i'm mad, i've noticed). i've drawn pictures of napolean dynamite, oprah winfrey *i love oprah!*, and that big moose in the chapel at the wilds. i write out things in caligraphy and change my handwriting a lot. but i don't like people to read what i write. that's a problem i have that doesn't seem so obvious, but josh has mentioned it a few times and since then i've noticed how annoying it can be to my family especially. if i'm upset or don't know how to respond to something i shut people out or close myself in. i want to be able to handle my problems on my own without other people's help. i want to be independant, but no man is an island, and my pride is making me selfish. i wonder how many other people can learn from the things i screw up at?